iRaH_mAnJe**

*born in the year 1987*
*leo baby*
*surrounded by her love ones always*
*never leave home without
her HP and her watch*
*is a earring-freak*
*studying in nyp as a student nurse*
*friendly*
*can be quiet at times*
*can be playful at times*
*can neber tell wat is bothering her*
can contact her at

[[*lOvEs*]]

*sweet stuffs*
*teddies and more teddies*
*loves mummy's cooked food*
*love to put a smile in people face*
*bowling*
*season ice lemon tea*
*chicken rice n bee hoon soto*
*shopping*
*kitten n cats*
*butterfly*
*dolphin*

[[*hAtEs*]]

*unfriendly*
*cannot be trusted*
*selfish*
*backstabbers*
*stuck up*
*those whu detest other on how they look*
*fights*

[[*wIsHlIsT*]]

*to make mummy proud*
*levi's jeans and skirt*
*advance diploma*
*lose weight*
~~*graduating from my course*~~
*highlite my hair*
*tops*
*my own car*
*my 21st birthday bash*

[[*tAgGiEs*]]

[[*lInKiEs*]]

*XuE* *sUrIa* *pRiNcIe*
*pRinCess* *u-Im* *mIrA* *soFiA*
*aZlina* *fAdlInA* *sAmAnThA*
*fAbIaN* *yUyIn* *iReNe* *ShIqI*
*rIDuWaN* *sHeIlA* *lIsAA* *faReDz*
*yAtIeZ* *nAnA* *sUzIe* *sHaKiNaH* *nOrA* *noOrUl*

[[*arChiVes*]]

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fIlLiNg In HeR LoVe

Sunday, June 08, 2008

i'm feeling so terrible now... i'm superly sick my tummy hurts... my head hurts... my heart hurts... i juz feel sooo dead... nothing i do can help me feel better... i realli need someone badly...

its sooo hurting dat knowing u care but u still hurt me over the same matter...
its sooo hurting dat we kept fighting over the same issue...
its sooo hurting dat despite all that i have told u it still does not get to ur head...

i juz hope that everything will be fine wen i wake up tomolo... haiz...

iRaH_mAnJe ExPrEssiNg HeR ToUtS
5:41 AM

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fIlLiNg In HeR LoVe

Saturday, May 31, 2008

I'M PISSED AND CONFUSED!!!!!

KL here i come.... heex...

iRaH_mAnJe ExPrEssiNg HeR ToUtS
1:46 PM

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fIlLiNg In HeR LoVe

Saturday, May 24, 2008

okie okie... birthday prep are almost ready... juz need to $$ den all settled... as for door gift still hunting... anyone????

back to my life... almost pathetic as i am still busy wit working... each dae getting tired... my cough and sorethroat have been on and off but then i think i am getting used wit ma voice sooo no doctors involved... heex...

need to bring my lil angel to watch DORA the EXPLORER... she love it sooo much... everytime ask bout DORA she will nod nod... heex...

iRaH_mAnJe ExPrEssiNg HeR ToUtS
4:57 AM

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fIlLiNg In HeR LoVe

Thursday, May 15, 2008

Help!!!
i'm getting tired of planning my 21st birthday...
initially tout of getting a party under the blok...
but then i am sick of going ard finding caterer's...
wanted to go to find locations for my birthday but some places not halal...
wanted to go for chalet but i still pending for the caterer...
manage to get some good deals on the way...
was explaining to mum till she drop me this big mindset...

i should be enjoying my 21st birthday sooo instead of throwing a party like i had plan i should be using my savings to go for a trip... now dat sounds like a good idea... a getaway trip for my 21st birthday??? sooo still thinking la... if not juz a simple birthday party at homie... heex...

iRaH_mAnJe ExPrEssiNg HeR ToUtS
2:17 PM

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fIlLiNg In HeR LoVe

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

yeah2.. everything is back to norm... now all we have is happiness ard us except for the time other ppl making me pissed over small matter dat they dunno how to talk nicely... work have been okie... except for the coughing moments at work... i'm am a lil paranoid but i dun wan to thnk sooo much la... i juz hope that it will fade away soon... hahaha... seriously keep facing patient whu having SOB.. i also starting to get scared... hahaha...

sweetheart... i'm soriew for causing soo much pain n tears in us.. i juz hope it will nt happen again... i juz hate the tears that we had... it is sooo hurting... i'm glad i made the move back cuz i realli dunno wat is going to happen if u are not with me...

iRaH_mAnJe ExPrEssiNg HeR ToUtS
2:16 AM

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fIlLiNg In HeR LoVe

Sunday, May 11, 2008

am i being selfish???
am i in the fault for letting u go???
am i making ur life suffer when i let go???
am i not understanding u???
am i not being fair to u???

i am realli confuse...
i let u choose between us...
u made ur choice but u kept saying i was selfish...
u made ur choice despite telling me i was ur happiness...
i am hurt...
yes...
i have neber shed this much tears for anyone...
i have neber...
u wan us but have u tout of me???
have u tout of how i feel seeing the two of u...
have u tout of how i feel all this while???
am i realli ur happiness???

u cant let go of the other party...
so why do u wan to keep me???
u can't decide so i shall decide for u...
i noe u sooo much wan to be with the other party...
here is ur chance...
dun let it go to waste...
i may not be around any longer...
i will be fading till one day u wun even see me ard...

to de inner me...
u wull be srong irah...
i noe u are...
no matter how tough life has been u have always manage to stnd...
this will juz be another test...
let the person go...
let the person have happiness...
u will be strong...
u will manage to pass this stage...
u will still smile...
u will still be urself...
u need to look after urself...
remember...
u left the most important part about ur health from dem...
onli u and ur doc noe wat it is...
dun let ur life span shorten cuz of this okie...
irah will be strong...

iRaH_mAnJe ExPrEssiNg HeR ToUtS
7:31 PM

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after bout almost 5years it has not been bothering me...
yesterday it came back...
and i tell u i wan sooo scared i might juz leave...
thank god i learn ways to control it till i reach the clinic...
the worst part was being alone...
din wan to trouble mum as she herself is sick...
din wan to travel back to work cuz i dun think dat was the rite move...
luckily my clinic was still open...

doc gave me my first neb after he auscultate...
after my first neb she listen again...
it din improve...
my SpO2 was onli 92%...
he gt scared...
ask me go hospital...
i was stubborn...
he gave me prednisolone and my second neb...
onli den it improve and was slightly better...
my SpO2 wen up to 96%...
he still insist i go to the hospital...
but i was juz stubborn...
wen home by bus...
all alone...

iRaH_mAnJe ExPrEssiNg HeR ToUtS
4:39 PM

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fIlLiNg In HeR LoVe

Saturday, May 10, 2008

i tout things wud be better but i guess i was wrong...
i dun wan to hope animore...
not dat i trust u...
i'm juz hurt...
tears kept rolling down my cheeks...
how hurting is dat...

iRaH_mAnJe ExPrEssiNg HeR ToUtS
6:54 PM

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